Working on loving myself...

A butterfly sat on my shoulder...  That symbolizes a new beginning after a great struggle... Is that why I feel so damn good!

In the past few months I've lost and gained 20+ pounds, let go of a future with a man I really like, embraced my natural hair, filed bankruptcy, resigned from an organization, realized who my real friends are, and decided to spend the summer loving myself.

My "Summer of Me" starts with:
- Creating a firm budget
- Starting with the Daniel Diet to get on the right path with God and focus on me
-Exercising on a consistent regular basis
-Blogging on a regular basis
-Spending quality time with my son
-Accepting every inch of this life His has blessed me with

I know that I am one of God's butterfly!

When God Closes a Door...

He opens a sunroof or creates a skylight in your mind.

I feel so renewed right now. I feel so full of life. My blues have sailed away and I feel so free to be me. I see nothing but good and great days ahead. I'm thanking the Lord in advance, what a difference a weekend makes... This could very well be a dark time in my life, but I know I'm in the middle of a storm and good is winning.

A friend called today to tell me "You are beautiful, a hard working good mother, a strong woman and I love you."  Just as I opened my mouth to say I love you back she said "and don't say it back to me. That's not why I called, I wanted to give it and for you to hear it without feeling the need to give it back." I was like wow... Truly giving and accepting without expecting anything back. She said she felt love pouring out of her and wanted to share it and I was more than happy to receive it. That was one of the greatest gifts I received today.

What was yours?

Success is being Self-Full...

So many times I've done what was expected of me... What was wanted of me... Not what I wanted. When I did what I wanted it was done out of rebellion, to prove no one could put me in a box or dictate what I do... And this has gotten me into a lonely, depressed, confused state of mind.

I was watching Oprah's Lifeclass with Iyanla and when she said " how you treat yourself is a reflection of how you treat God" it struck a cord with me. In my life I can look back at the moments when I treated myself right, when the plan worked, when my mind was clear, when I had faith and I see God's footprint in my timeline.

But what I got from this is that to have Success, I have to be Self-Full. Cause to help others, to do my life's purpose, I have to fully be me, stand in my truth and have my cup full... What runneth over my cup is what I'm giving... What's in my cup is mine! It's another way of saying I need to put my oxygen mask on first...

So I say all of this to acknowledge I've allowed myself to be distracted... But no more... I have my first 5k to run on May 5... An insurance exam to retake, a child to get focused... Some weight to lose, bills to pay, money to save, life to live, love for myself to gain and a plan to work... Let's get it!